Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Had an ugly dream last night. Was all bounded in my boyfreinds unsecurety on me. We are at a party where my eks is to, im lieing on a bed all alone when my very very drunk exboyfriend suddenly comes and lies on top on me and try to kiss me.. hes drunk and very unpleasent, and i dont want it at all.. in that minut my boyfriend steps into the room.. look at us, and turn hes back at me without seeing that im struggleling to get out of the hands of my ex.. I know that what my ex want is to rape me and hes holding my hands very firm. Im struggleing to get free of hes grip but only succeed becourse hes so drunk. I get free of him, but my boyfriend wont listen to the real story all he saw was us makeing out, and thats all he can see. The true story he wont hear. I stand left alone with noone to talk to feeling abused and hurted.
